Billy

I love this man. He has been amazing through this. Letting me cry, get mad, irrational, and laugh. He makes me feel so loved and even protected....something I never thought I would want! Thank you Billy. I chose the right man and feel so fortunate.

We have a date...

Bill and I met with my surgeon yesterday. I will have the surgery Feb 10. I am ready to get this thing out and move on. Really like my surgeon and am feeling Ok with it. It is hard for me to accept that I have cancer. Can't quite wrap my head around it. I guess it takes time.

Why not?

Breakfast of champions!

Gotta love the kids

We told the kids last night. We thought they might be upset as their only experience with cancer was with my Aunt and Bill's Aunt.....and they both died 2 years ago. Nope. I did get a few questions though...

Z- "what color is it?" (refering to the cancer)
me- "ummm, I don't know. I guess I could ask?

Z - "when they cut it out can you bring it home?"
me - "Ummmm, I don't think so. They have to send it off to a lab". (so glad to get out of that one)

John just wanted to know why I had to have surgery and why couldn't I just take some medicine to get rid of it.

Owen and Cait.....I think they were making faces at each other and trying to leave the table.

Then they all cleared the table, starting argueing, and went to play in the basement. Yup, Mom has breast cancer, blah blah blah. Life is back to the norm for the Taylor kids. As it should be!

Did make me laugh. I was so nervous about how to tell them.

Good news!

We got some great news tonight! My cancer is all in one place! Looks like surgery and radiation really will be all I need! I had been holding my breath and now feel like I can breath again. Bill and I meet with the Dr on Wed. and we will set a date for surgery. The tumor is very close to the skin so she will have to take the skin. Do not care! Take it! We are just so very relieved. We will sleep well tonight. This had truly been the longest week of my life. We have not told the kids yet as we wanted to wait until we had more facts. We are thinking after our meeting on Wed we will tell them what is going on. It is hard to keep this from them. So thankful tonight.

Auntie's birthday!!

So yesterday was a bit crazy and I forgot about my best friend's birthday!!! A horrible friend I am. Don't worry sister.....today will work! Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to yooooou, happy birthday to you. You look like a monkey and you smell like one too. Zach and John made we say that last part. I love you sister (especially when you are now 2 yrs older than me...not that I'm counting or anything).

Seriously, thank you for being such a good friend. I'd be lost without you!

new blog..

I have my MRI today. Mom took Cait home with her last night. I didn't sleep Tuesday night and really needed to last night. My Mom came up and cooked dinner and whisked Cait away for some fun with Grandma and Grandpa. Thank you MOM! I guess this blog will be a little less kids and pics now. I'm still working through my fears. I know I will be fine ...it's just scary. Bill and I are anxious to have the MRI so we can get a complete picture of what we are dealing with and move on. It's hard to do your research when you don't have all the facts!

Today

Today I will work on accepting and moving forward. I have breast cancer. I am 39. I am so lucky my cancer was found early and I have excellent prognosis. The best. I have 4 children and a husband whom I love. I have an amazing family. I will be fine and I am going to kick ass.

Cait and her cake
Grandma and kids
The Bergman's are here! Portia and fam have moved down the way from us!!! We are about 15-20 min down the road from them! Yippee~!~

more Cait....

She got a fancy new dress from Tara and Uncle Mark...she LOVES it!
our girl with Daddy
Cait and John looking at the snow
playing in the snow

4 years ago today......

In labor ...awoke at 4:30 with my first contraction. After being 4cm for 2 days I expected things to move a little faster than they did! She was born around 9:30 am.
with our amazing midwife and nurse and Billy (he 'caught' our daughter.
Her big brothers
Life with Cait

Cait is our 4th and final baby. I was realizing yesterday we will never have a 3yr old in our house again. So bittersweet. Cait is SO full of energy and life. I often feel like I am trying to keep up with her. She is a whirlwind. She loves to dance and sing and laugh. She keeps us on our toes and laughing. She talks A LOT! (She is teaching us all patience! ) I love that she has a mind of her own and is not afraid of anything. We love our Winifred Caitlin Taylor and can't wait to see where she takes us next. Happy Birthday sweet girl.

Winifred Caitlin Taylor (Cait)

She said to me "I'm amazing on this thing"



Yes, Cait, you are amazing!

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

watching the snow
looking out at the ice
snow!
Our redneck sled
Can't believe it but it is snowing. The kids were let out early in anticipation of snow, strange but true. I really didn't think it would actually snow.

had to add...

Our Christmas card pic......we did a very short list this year so we missed A LOT of people...sorry. We promise to do better next year!
The whole crew from Thanksgiving. We were sooo lucky to have our whole family with us (Bill's parents, my parents, My brother and his wife, and Uncle jerry). Truly the best Thanksgiving!

2010

John and Cait
Christmas morning
Owen on the way to Christmas Eve service
Cait and billy

Christmas Morning

With special thanks to Mom and Dad Kaasa, we now have a video camera. Our first big movie was waiting for Caitlin on Christmas morning. Enjoy.